Last night, we played cards at Dave’s house. When I first got there, it
was just me, Dave, Rusty (icky), and Lance, who cut his hair and it is
spiked now and it makes him look hot. We started off with just a mini
$5 texas hold-em tournament. I took Rusty out with a full house. A few
minutes later, I took Lance out with a full house, and in both
instances, I felt I played it well. It was just me and Dave left, and
after about 45 minutes, he took me out.

A short while later, Mark showed up, followed by Don shortly
thereafter. We played a $10 game this time, and I was awful. I think I
won all of 1 hand. Don actually went out before me, but I was not far
behind. Mark actually won this game.

After that, we played Crash Bash, it was Dave, Mark, Don and I. Mark
and Don had never played the game before. For Don, it didn’t matter, he
picked it up quickly. Mark on the other hand, suck-didily-ucked. It was
great! Anywho, we stood until about 2 and then came home.

I chatted with a really sweet guy last night until after 5 in the AM.
He showed me tons of pictures and I’m looking forward to getting to
know him.

The Bulls won! Man, what an exciting game. Tyson Chandler rules! He and
Kirk Hinrich are my 2 favorite playes, I just don’t know which one I
like more. I think I lean toward Hinrich, because he is a point guard,
which would be the postion I would play. Anywho, they have won 6
straight! I don’t want to get too excited, but I think they will return
to the playoffs this year.

There is a serious problem that has been going on for years, and it is
very disturbing. Somebody keeps hiring Jim Belushi. I can’t understand
this. I caught some of his very lame ass show the other night and its
downright frightening that people find him entertaining. Shit, at least
crap ass Creed broke up and have run their course. But Jim
Belushi………….shit, he just won’t go away. How long can one
person ride the coattails of a family member? I mean, honestly, K-9? As
if that weren’t bad enough, does anybody realize he has made sequels to
this movie? Who greenlighted that embarrasment? His partner is a
dog………….WE GET IT! We sure as hell don’t need to see it again
and again. And people say Michael Moore hates America, but honestly, who
hates America more, him or the loser that keeps employing Jim Belushi?
His show is so bad, it could even be on FOX. And my brothers watch this
show. Man, I think I need to find a new family.

Isn’t it ironic that we have decided to stop looking for weapons of
mass distruction AFTER the election? I suppose I should try to find a
silver lining in this and that is, we are no longer wasting money
looking for something that was never there.

Baseball’s new steriod policy is good, but not good enough. Sure, it
will help cut back on usage, even last year’s joke of a policy curbed
usage, but honestly, a 1 year suspension for the fourth offense? Thats
a damn joke.

I met John last night. I left to go there about 9:15ish, and after
stopping for gas, I was on the expressway about 9:25PM. Yahoo’s
directions, although accurate, were clearly not the best route, but oh
well, it did the job. I go there about 10:20 and started to look for a
parking spot……….I HATE parrell parking. His street was VERY VERY
VERY narrow, only room for one car to go down, which might explain why
it was one way. There was not much parking to be found. First, I tried
parking on a side street, but it was too far away, so I moved it. I
found a spot just up the street. The street was very dark, as there
were no street lights at all. And was raining. I don’t understand how
we can have severe thunderstorms in January, but yet, here we were. I
walked in and mistakenly pressed the wrong button. Some lady came
downstairs and pointed me in the right direction. I knocked at the
door. Nothing. Knocked again. And again. And again. Still nothing,
nothing, and nothing. Ok, I have just driven an hour, struggled to find
parking, and walked in the rain, don’t tell me he has gone to bed. I
left and called his cell from a local gas station. Called twice.
Nothing. At this point, I was fairly agitated, but decided to drive
down his street one more time, as I did come a long way.

As I was moving down the street, I saw a guy standing in the road. He
waved at me, and it turns out, it was him. I unrolled my window and
greated him. He told me to park anywhere and come in. I rolled the
window up and said “Wow……..he’s hot!”

He has got a nice little apartment. Great floors. When I walked in, he
and his stoned roommate were watching Futurama. We watched for a few
minutes when he got up to show me around the place. He bedroom was
messy, which was a relief to me, as its good to know that I’m not the
only adult with a messy bedroom. I was there until shortly after
midnight when I left to come home. He seems like a cool guy, I had a
good time…………..at least, sort of.

Today at work, I had to sit with another person. This girl was really
good though, but because of my lack of sleep and it being boring, I was
falling asleep. I did manage to hear a pissed off lady call to complain
to us because her daughter had been declined, for which she claimed was
discrimination. The best part about this, was that she claimed that she
had not only called the Attorney General about this, but also claimed
to have called the President as well…………no, not the president
of the company, but George fucking Bush instead. Yeah, right, like he
is going to have time to deal with this shit. I don’t care, Republican
or Democrat, no president should be burdened down with this kind of
shit. I mean, shouldn’t he focus more on coming up with more bullshit
reasons why we went into Iraq?

I sat with a different chick today. She was ok. She seemed to be
constantly moving (she claims to have ADD, but I don’t know about that,
seeing as its so “in” to have ADD), in fact, she is talking to
customers on the phone but seems to spend more of her time doing
paperwork on other customers at the same time. She also was eating on
the phone. And I don’t mean in between calls. Like, in between
sentences. Everybody in this place seems to eat at their desk while on
the phone, I don’t know how they get away with it or how they don’t
have enough work ethic to realize that talking on the phone and eating
at the same time is just not good. After all, what if you choke? The
person on the other end can’t help you at all…………its not like
they can reach through the phone and do the Heimlich Manuever (spelling
please………I know I butchered it).

I was thinking about the word gay today. How did gay come to mean
homosexual? The meaning of gay is happy, so you would think people that
have a lot of great sex and were always happy because of it, they would
be called gay. You know, like “Oh, Sam is so happy today” “Yes, its
because Sam has a lot hot, great sex.” “Oh, you mean, he is one of
those gays, huh?”.
Maybe its because gay sex is always better than straight
sex………..shit, everybody knows that. But, getting back to my
original point, the word gay. Sure, it means happy, but how can happy
be used to describe a group of people that aren’t any happier than
straight people? Come to think of it, if anything, gays are less happy.
For many, they sruggle with their sexuality and having to be ridiculed,
all of which is anything but happy. Does the word gay mean gay because
of flamboyence? That still doesn’t make sense, because a lot of
flamboyent guys are still not any happier than straights. This is all a
mystery to me, so if anybody knows an answer, please feel free to
enlighten me…………it would make me very gay.

Ok, I got something now. I heard of the news that the gay rights bill
to ban discrimination against gays is very close to getting passed.
This is a great thing, but they were interviewing the dopes they always
interview about any sorta story. And, one of the dopes against the bill
was saying that “you can’t pass a bill like this and not expect it to
trample over the rights of religous people.” I have had about enough of
these Christians bastards trying to make it out like they are victims.
Its just like when blacks get long overdue rights, the whites are (just
read that last sentence, its a tounge twister) always pissed about them
not getting anything in return. HEL-FUCKING-LO PEOPLE!! Do you not
realize that you are the MAJORITY and already have those rights and are
not losing them at all? How can that even be a legit argument? Why
can’t we just get what everybody else has? I know what they will
say………….that being gay is a choice. Well, if it is a choice,
then chosing to be straight is a choice too, so please, I want them to
tell me all about the day they made the choice to be straight. After
all, it must be a very very important decision, seeing as it will
affect the rest of their lives. I would say it is as important, if not
more important, as choosing to get married or picking a college. Hell,
chicks remember every little detail about the day they got engaged, so
surely they can remember the day they chose to be straight instead of
gay. I don’t want to seem like I’m whining about all of this, but shit,
i feel VERY VERY strongly about this. Anytime there is discrimination
or lack of equal rights for ANYBODY, it bothers me a great deal. It is
my big issue, the one I care the most for. And after all, its not like
we
are asking for special treatment. We are just asking to be treated just
like everybody else. Its not like we are asking to be exempt from
paying taxes (the idea Alan Keyes had for blacks) or asking to granted
special access for NASA to take us into space. We just want what
everybody else has, and nothing more. Is that too much to ask?

I’m starting some additional training at work this week. Today I had to
sit with this chick while she took calls………..I’m supposed to
learn from her. I guess the goal was to learn what not to do, because
she suck-didily sucked. She was rude and short, and just………man,
if only I were monitoring her. She was flat out awful. On the other
hand, it all makes me feel more secure about being able to move up.

Really, I got nothing else now. I don’t know why, I just don’t.

This top 10 list was on Letterman last night…………I thought it was funny.

Top Ten Shows on the New Gay Cable Network

I have watched the first 4 episodes of 24, and I have to say, it sucks.
Its the same old shit. I don’t know if I can put up with another 20
episodes of this crap. The thing is, the first season and a half were
really really really good. Last season started off slow, but finished
very good. Now, they have done it all already. They should not have
brought it back for a 4th season.

I guess there is a bill up in the IL house that would make it illegal
for people to discriminate against gays when it comes to jobs and
things like that. It a fairly controversial bill, which I don’t
understand. Why do they hate us so much? All we are looking for is
equality. We just go about our business and live our lives. Why can’t
we just live our lives just like everybody else? It doesn’t make sense.
If we are supposed to be a free country, our sexual orinatation
shouldn’t matter. I have been doing a lot of thinking about this
recently, why is there so much hate directed at us? With the exception
of the jews (and maybe the Muslims), no other group is as hated as us.
And why? Because their precious bible claims that homosexuality is
wrong. Well, why not come down half as hard on the other million things
the bible says is wrong? Why go afer gays? My working theory is that
people are afraid of the unknown………..they don’t know gays and
don’t want to get to know them, but if they took the time to see beyond
our sexual orinatation, they would see that we are just like them and
have the same wants and needs. But, people have to be simple-minded and
allow for society and their prejudices to get in the way. And, although
I blame the bible and religon for a good portion of this, the bottom
line is that people aren’t willing to look past that, instead they hide
behind the bible, but yet will not condem and still support other
aspects of the bible that are supposed to be wrong. Does any of this
make any sense? Normally I’m in the mood to say something funny, but I
just don’t feel it today.

I really didn’t to much today…………or, actually, I sorta did. We
had to finish getting the rest of the Christmas decorations down, so I
did that for a good portion of the day. I also cleaned around the house
too. Oh, and I watched a lot of playoff football. Damn, I knew the
Broncos would lose. Now who do I root for? The Rams? I have always like
St Louis. I think I will root for the Rams, but I don’t think they will
get very far. Randy Moss is a motherfucker. I can’t stand him. I have
to say though, his afro looked funny as hell today. I will update more
later.

Man, I thoroughly HATE losing at cards. We had 2 games tonight. The
first game was a $20 buy-in with 8 people. 2 of the dudes were cute,
including the guy next to me. Not that it mattered though. When I
gamble, it is one of the few times when I do not think about sex at
all. I’m all business then. I’ll spare everybody most of the details
about the game though. I will say this, for the first time ever, I was
witness (well, sorta) to a natural royal flush. The cute dude next to
me, he got it. I wasn’t really paying attention, since I had folded a
few hands earlier, but it was still cool. I actually didn’t know he got
a royal flush until we had started the next hand. Anywho, the first
game, I finished in 4th place. Me and some chick went out on the same
hand (we lost to the royal flush dude) but she had a better hand than
me, so technically, she beat me, which meant something, because since
she finished in 3rd place, she got $20, whereas I got a porno
(actually, I wound up not even taking it).

The 2nd game was the biggest one we had ever had. We had 11 people,
which divided down into 2 tables (one 6 person, the other, which I was
at, 5) with a $20 buy-in and $150 to 1st place. After about 3 hands,
this guy Jeff (who had finished 2nd in the first game) had went all in,
and the royal flush guy matched him, but Jeff won the hand, leaving
royal flush with barely anything. He was down to about 2 chips. About
15 minutes later, Jeff was out of the game! We were not able to finish
off royal flush. In fact, I was out next (meaning I finished in
10th…………how ugly) and with 4 people left at my table (we picked
up somebody from the other table) the royal flush dude was the fucking
leader in chips, if you can believe that. I left shortly thereafter. I
just can’t stand to watch people play after I have lost like that. The
problem was I just played scared most of the night. Ahhhhh, fuck it!

I went out with Kevin agan last night. I arrived to pick him up and
neither one of us could really decide what to do. I had already eaten
dinner, and he kept saying he wasn’t hungry and had no money and didn’t
know what he wanted to do. So, we drove around in my car trying to
decide what to do. We settled on a place called the Dupage Inn (its not
an inn, but instead a resturant/bar). I just had simple bowl of chilli.
He had whatever it was that he ate. Now, this might be taboo, but we
talked about politics and religon. Turns out, for the most part, we
share the same views. Imagine that.

After dinner, we went back to his house and watched “The Usual
Suspects”. I really want to see that movie in its entirety, but the
first time I saw it, back when it was in the theatre, I couldn’t
concentrate because I saw it with Jt and I was too busy fantisizing
about him the whole time. Last night, on the other hand, it was 20
minutes into it by the time we started watching it and we spent most of
the movie talking. Anywho, nothing big, but after the movie, I went
home.