Opening day. It just might be my favorite day of the year. Too bad mother nature hates opening day. It was warmer than I thought it would be, but it pretty much rained the whole day, honestly I would take dry cold with no rain delays than still kinda chilly with a rain delay. I left my house about 9 and got down into Lincoln Park to meet the guy I was going with (Terry). We took the L to the ballpark. I always love taking the train to the ballpark, its cool in that you can see the train kinda sneak up on the park. It was a constant drizzle as we walked past the park and to the Stubhub office to pick up our over priced tickets. I brought a poncho which didn’t seem to keep me as dry as I would have liked. I don’t blame the poncho though, as I walked around without it on as it drizzled for a good 15 minutes. My thinking was that I was probably going to have to have the damn thing on most of the day anyway, so why not leave it off for right now. As it turns out, in retrospect, I’m a fucking moron.

We got the tickets and headed to a very packed bar across the street. Terry got a beer and I got a cup of coffee that they did not charge me for. They even served it in an actual glass coffee cup instead of a foam cup. We hung out there for a few minutes before going to the ballpark to look at the brand spanking new Ernie Banks statue which was unveiled today. Its pretty nice, a very good likeness of Banks in his prime.

After that we went across the street to the Cubby Bear. I have gone to the Cubby Bear a few times, its a pretty cool happenin’ bar, usually always packed, especially on game days. This was no exception, shit after all it was opening day. While we were inside the bar, it started to pour outside. This wasn’t good. In fact, it kind of sucked. It was 12:15 and the game was SUPPOSED to start at 1:20.

After the rain let up a little bit, we walked to the park and headed for our seats. Now I don’t know why its always like this, but for whatever reason it ALWAYS seems 10-15 degrees colder in the park as opposed to outside the park. At least it does on days when its cold. When its hot in the summer, it doesn’t matter one damn bit. Our seats were in the upper deck, kinda far back. The difference at Wrigley compared to other stadiums is that the upper deck is not all that high. In fact, compared to other parks its not high at all. Hmmmmm………….I think I wrote about that yesterday. Oh, and one HUGE benefit to sitting this far back in the upper deck is that there is a cover over the seats so when it was raining, we were staying relatively dry. This made it easy to stay warm. And after a few innings, it wasn’t really cold at all.

The start of the game was delayed by rain and it didn’t start until about 2 in the pm. There was a buzz in the ballpark, I haven’t been at a game that was this electric in a long time. Much of the upper deck remained standing during the entire top of the first inning. It was awesome, a great atmosphere. And when new Cub Kosuke Fukudome came to bat in the bottom of the second inning, the entire crowd gave him a standing ovation. He rewarded us by hitting a rope of a line drive over the centerfielder’s head for a double. Unfortunately, he did not score.

We got one batter into the bottom of the 3rd when the damn rain started again. This time it resulted in about a 45 minute delay, maybe a little longer. Once they started playing again, they were able to play straight through without another stoppage due to rain.

Flash forward to the 9th inning where the Brewers got 3 runs off Kerry Wood to take a 3-0 lead. In the bottom of the 9th, the Cubs put 2 men on for the aforementioned Fukudome. The crowd was already alive and really into the game when he lined a pitch over the centerfield wall for a game tying 3 run homer. The place went NUTS. It was as loud as any game I have ever been at and the cheers seemed to go on forever. I was among them as well, jumping up and down and screaming. So was a very drunk Terry. Oh, I almost forgot to mention this, but he was wearing the very same Andre Dawson jersey that I should have won from him in a football bet back in January.

This being the Cubs though meant that they, of course, would turn around and lose the damn fucking game in the top of the 10th. And so it starts another season with heartbreaking losses. I hope this isn’t the start of a trend. Shit, I’m a Cub fan though, I KNOW this is the start of a trend.

As it turns out, the meeting I had at work actually had nothing to do with the position I applied for. In fact, it was quite the opposite. I’m not going to get into specifics right now but needless to say it was not good at all. Yes, I am still employed……………for now.  Jesus, I replace the coffee creamer with cocaine one time and it might cost me my job. You would think they would have a sense of humor about these sort of things.

I should clarify, I did not replace the creamer with cocaine. I replaced it with rat poison.

Tomorrow, I’m going to opening day. Originally this guy from work and I were just going to go to the Cubby Bear across the street from the park and watch the game. But, he talked me into actually getting tickets to the game. Of course, the game was all sold out so we had to severely overpay for bad seats on StubHub. That being said, as long as we aren’t right behind a pole, there really is no bad seat in Wrigley. Our seats are in the upper deck and even the upper deck is not bad, its not nearly as high as the upper deck at Comiskey, Busch, Miller Park or the Metrodome. Should be a great atmosphere at the park though, there is something about opening day that is just so much damn fun. If my memory serves me correctly, this is my 5 or 6th time at opening day. Last time was in 2004 when coming off a division title the previous year (much like this year) they proceeded to get their asses kicked by the Pirates something like 13-2. And we froze our asses off. Oh, I guess I should mention that I’m speaking of the Cubs, although honestly if you don’t know that by now than you are pretty damn dense.

Every year though I try to write some predictions about the season. In spite of what all of the so called experts are saying, I am not picking the Cubs to win the division this year. They have too many question marks, the biggest one being Kerry Wood as the closer. Now don’t get me wrong, I love Kerry Wood. He is a stand up guy and I have the utmost respect for him. But the reality is that even when he was healthy (and that is a monumental if) he still was not nearly as good as his potential. He is very inconsistent and a closer role is something you need to be consistent.in. I do see the Cubs contending for the division title though, after all they would have to be VERY VERY VERY bad for them not to contend in this piss poor division. My pick again is the Brewers, even though I hate that team. As for the White Sox, while………….they should be much improved, but honestly they will not be able to compete with the likes of the Tigers and Indians.

As for my World Series picks, I’m going to go with the Detroit Tigers beating the New York Mets. And that kills me to say that, because I HATE HATE HATE the Mets more than any other team in professional sports. As for a dark horse, I think the Seattle Mariners could be a team that shocks everybody.

As always, GO CUBS!

Just a very brief update. Today I found out that the manager of the HR department wants to meet with me, my boss and my boss’s boss for a one hour meeting tomorrow morning. The subject of this meeting was not revealed to me and when I asked my boss about it, she said that she did not know about the meeting until I told her. I’ve got a couple of theories, one of them is that the original person they wanted to give the job to has declined it and they are going with me. Or, they want to offer me another position. Or maybe a trial run at the position that I applied for. Or maybe they want to fire me or send me to prison. Who the hell knows, I just know that I’m anxious to find out what this is for.

I got back from lunch today to find a blue envelope at my desk from the HR department. As soon as I saw it I knew exactly what it was and instantly a feeling of extreme disappointment came over me. I was not going to get the position I applied for. The letter said that they were “unable to offer me the position at this time.” Geez, the way it was worded it led me to believe that maybe they weren’t going to hire somebody at this time and maybe in a few months, they would open up the position again. I needed to know more, why I was not chosen. So, after discussing it with my boss and several other people, it was decided that it would be ok to ask the 2 ladies who interviewed me why I didn’t get the position.

So I walked into HR. I pointed at them and said “Yo, ladies!” I pulled up the sleeves of my shirt. I then raised my arm in the shape of an “L” and pointed to my MASSIVE right bicep and said “see what you turned down? See what you are passing on? You aint gettin’ any of this.” I then put up my left arm and said “See this? You get none of this either. Both of these could have been yours, but now you are going to have to live with you loss.” I then bent slightly over and pointed at my ass which was pointing out “Oh, and you are soooooo gonna be missin this too! You aint gonna get none of this fine ass shit! Baby this ass is all mine and you can forget about ever getting a piece”. I then forced myself to vomit on the one ladies desk before walking off into the sunset. I also may have slashed their tires as well, I’m just not sure. I mean, it would certainly explain the knife in my back seat and my hands being dirty from touching tires.

Actually, I sent an email asking them if there was anything I could have done differently. See, I had the interview 2 weeks ago and I was convinced I had this position. What really sucks about being cocky and arrogant is that if you don’t get it, it is a bigger letdown and disappointment. I thanked them for the unique opportunity. One of the ladies responded and said that they both felt the interview went very well. They said that I have a wonderful positive attitude and not to get discouraged because I’ve got a bright future at this company. In the end though they just felt that I didn’t have enough leadership skills and planning experience and to see her if I had anymore questions.

See, now the temptation exists. Do I see her for more questions? If I do that, I know I will go in there and try to sell myself and try to convince them to change their minds. I really wanted this job very bad and I felt very strongly that I would be perfect for it. Even my boss and her boss both said the same thing. If I do talk to them I will tell them that I’m going to do whatever it takes to get this position should it ever become available. The problem is that its a nice, cushy job and whoever gets it will not quit anytime soon. See, this position is a brand new position they are creating and therefore, honestly nobody quite knows what to expect. Still, its the only position in the entire company like this and another opportunity like this will not come around again anytime soon. This is part of the reason why I want to try to sell them on me. Its also why I’m extremely disappointed at the result.

Well it looks like I will be going to St Louis again this year for the Cubs-Cards series. This time its the first weekend in May, which is really not all that far off. Mark told me the other day that he and 3 of his friends were going, so I kinda invited myself with. Well, its not quite like that. They only had 4 tickets, and the rooms are sold either 2 or 4 to a room. He said that since I didn’t have anybody to pair up with, he figured I wouldn’t go. But, I booked a room today with tickets for the Friday night game. Now I just have to find somebody to go with me. I have ruled out John because last year he told me he was going to go and then backed out about a month before we were to go. I was unable to find anybody else to go with so I had to pay for the full cost of the room by myself. Also, John never paid me back for our niece’s trip to Chicago last year. And since I’m not in the business of giving John free vacations, I’m not going to ask him, even though as Mark and I were discussing it, he said he wanted to go. I kinda feel like a dick and almost feel guilty about it. That being said, I know that he is not good for the money. I know damn well that he would not pay me back. So, why should I let him take advantage of me? I would much rather go by myself then have him go and not pay me back. Also, the weekend is pretty much a weekend of lots of partying and drinking. John and alcohol usually doesn’t  mix. I just don’t want to deal with him, after all its a vacation for me, and after his behavior at Scootyfest, I just as soon not be around him when he drinks.

Check out this link:

http://www.godlessbastard.com/

I swear, I love the fucking internet. Or as a certain presidential dip shit refers to it, “the world wide internets”. See, in this day and age the internet allows every type of person to find people they can relate to. And Atheists are no different. I’m thinking I’m gonna submit some of the stuff I have written to this website and see if I can get it posted. I’d like to think some of the stuff I have written on religion is pretty damn funny, why not find a way to share it with more people?

So I went to my accountant to do my taxes last week. Although I’m getting a refund, I still have no problem with paying taxes. I know most people complain about having to pay taxes, but I have got a different opinion on it. See, my thinking is that you get what you pay for. Allow me to explain. You have to think of countries as if they were cars. Now I’ve never been one of those people who blindly insist that America is the greatest country in the history of the world. We all know those types are usually the crazy redneckish Republican types who believe that if you don’t think America is the greatest thing since the blow job, than you HATE America and you need to get out. My opinion as always been that I don’t know nearly enough about other countries to claim America as the greatest. Its not say that I don’t think America is great, its just to say that I simply don’t know. Sure, I’d like to think we are the best or at least among the best, but let’s face it, there are a lot of things that can be improved or made different. We can and should borrow a lot of ideas from other countries as they should steal ideas from us. Anywho, I digress.

Getting back to my original car theory. Ok, so I think we can all agree that America is a first rate, world class country. You know, kind of like the Rolls Royce of countries. And since you get what you pay for, you should expect to pay more to live here. After all, we have a great defense and military, even if our president has abused the hell out of the military by putting them in a bullshit war. We also  have an entire government agency that is suppose to ensure that our food and water is safe for consumption. Of course, presently they have allowed our water supply to turn into a fucking Walgreens pharmacy, but that’s another topic. We also have social security for our elderly, even if it will be long gone by the time I retire. We have a national park system which is the envy of the world, even if our president wants to tear apart our Alaskan national parks to drill for oil. We have the EPA, which helps protect the environment. Ok, so many of our cities have air that is not healthy to breath. And our president has backed out of an agreement with many other nations that……………..you know, maybe Rolls Royce was too strong of a comparison Let’s instead go with Cadillac. After all, who doesn’t want a nice Caddy.

Ok, so the US is a Caddy. We are paying a lot in taxes and getting a lot for our money. We don’t have to worry about things that other third world countries have to worry about. Let’s compare those countries to say, an old Ford Pinto. They are beat up. While we have a wonderful interstate system, they have dirt roads and a broken infrastructure. Much like how an old car is starving for oil due to an oil leak, they have people who are starving for food due to a mass genocide or a war. Much how sometimes an old car has to rely on a tow truck, these countries need foreign aid to survive. So therefore, logically, citizens of those countries should not be expected to pay a lot in taxes.

So what about a middle of the road country? Say, your Toyota Camry of countries? Well, maybe those countries don’t have to worry as much about starvation. They don’t have to get aid from other countries. Their Olympic athletes aren’t exactly flying first class to the Olympics, but they can afford more than a horse or mule to get them there. However they don’t have some of the extras, like cruise control or power windows. In other words, they don’t have an interstate system (oh, I know other countries don’t call their territories states, but interstate is gonna have to do), they don’t have an out of this world national parks system, and the closest any of their citizens have ever gotten to the moon was being mooned by rich Americans. Still, its a decent country to live in and overall, the quality of life is good enough that they don’t have many complaints. Sure, things can be better, but they can be far worse as they good be broken down at the side of the road waiting for some evil dictator to rise to power.

See, so I guess my point is (that is assuming I have a point, after all I sometimes go days without making a point) that paying taxes might seem bad, but really its just the cost of living in a world class country. Much like driving a Cadillac, you know what you are getting is quality that is among the best in the world. Of course the ironic part is that those very same redneckish Republicans who insist America is the greatest country in the world are the very same people who bitch the most and loudest about taxes.

:Sigh:: Then again, I guess we all know most redneckish Republicans are complete and utter dumbasses who can’t understand many things beyond auto racing and WWF wrestling.

I watched a couple of much acclaimed  movies over the weekend. The first one was the Coen brothers No Country For Old Men. I did like it, thought it was very good, however I don’t know if it was worthy of an Oscar for best picture. I also feel that it was not the Coen brothers best work, as I feel Fargo was better than No Country. I think the academy felt they were much overdue for an Oscar much in the same way Martin Scorsese won last year for the Departed, a great movie, although not as good as Goodfellas. I will say this much though, the villain in No Country For Old Men (played wonderfully by Javier Bardem) was the creepiest character I have seen in a movie since Robert Blake’s character in Lost Highway. This character might have made the movie worth the price of admission alone, however the rest of the movie was still very good.

The other movie I watched was Into The Wild, which is a fact based movie about a 23 year old guy who leaves home in West Virginia and travels cross country for 2 years before eventually going to live in the wilderness by himself in Alaska. I think I liked this movie more than No Country For Old Men, even if it probably was not better. I was able to relate to the character a lot more as both he and I share a passionate love of travel and have a strong sense of adventure. The movie was directed by Sean Penn and stars the adorable Emile Hirsch. As a bonus for me, he is also naked in the movie. And I don’t mean just his ass, but his junk too! Unfortunately, it was a scene that was high up in the area so you don’t get that good of a look at it, but it was still nice. Getting back to the movie though, this guy’s journey was nothing short of amazing. On one hand, it seemed like he completely lost it when he left home, as he pretty much broke off all contact with his family, going as far as to even change his name so that he would not be found or associated with them. On the other hand, this was truly an amazing and ballsy thing to do, being out on his own with no car or money. I think I would have loved to have done something like that at his age, although I probably would have skipped doing some of the things he did.

This morning we went to Mark’s house for breakfast. Ok, so eating at 11:30 is probably not everybody’s idea of breakfast, but we didn’t get there until almost 11 and the food wasn’t done until after 11:30 in the am. And although we were only going there for breakfast, next thing you know we had lunch there too. And then dinner. Mark and Amy just got a Wii so we got hooked on playing that for, I dunno, the better part of 6 hours.

For whatever reason, I’m tired tonight. I’m gonna cut this short.

I’m going to be all over the place with this post.

Why the hell didn’t somebody tell me that we turned the clocks ahead an hour a week and a half ago? I found out when another person told me I was late and I got so pissed off that I stomped on their food and spit on their shirt.

And now its time for my annual St. Patrick’s Day joke. I forgot this on St. Patty’s Day, but better late than never. Anywho, here it is:

I was driving on St. Patrick’s Day and the towns out here were really into the holiday. The lights were a stop festive green!

A big thank you to Kara from the Xanga profile pigsareflyin (click her link, she is a great gal) she commented on the wigs from yesterday’s post: “Actually you can thank the Brits for the term “Big Wig”. The bigger the wig you wore showed how important you were”. I was kinda thinking that’s what it was Still, it doesn’t mean they don’t look ridiculous.

Ed (IronKnee, read him, he is great too!) pointed out  that today was the 5 year anniversary of us invading Iraq. He said that we should wear all black today because of the anniversary. So that is what I did. I don’t mind as I do like black, I think it looks good on me. As for the war, raise your hand if you are not surprised in the least that we are still there. I for one am not surprised, its just a reminder that Bush belongs in a fucking prison. Or even worse, GITMO.

The past few days I’ve had a tooth ache off and on. Perhaps I adopt Bush mentality and invade my nose looking for a cavity.

I don’t know how many of you have HBO, but I’ve been watching this very interesting mini series on John Adams. Its based on the popular biography written a few years ago by David McCullough. I always wanted to read the book but just have never gotten around to it. So instead, I’m going to watch the seven part mini series, the first two episodes I have already seen. The series stars Paul Giamatti as Adams. I have to say watching this thing, I’m in awe of people like Adams, Ben Franklin, George Washington, Judge Judy, Wolf Blitzer, Thomas Jefferson and John Hancock. Of course Adams’ son went on to become the 6th president of the United States which makes it even more amazing, 2 presidents from the same family (please don’t bother pointing out that the current president’s father was president as we all know that George W at his best only amounts to about a third of a president). To see what happened (assuming all of this is historically accurate) was amazing to me. And I found out some things that I didn’t know, like for example I did not know that Sam Adams was his cousin. Also, John Adams lawyered in defense of the British during the trial for the Boston Massacre. Also, here are some other little known facts that I probably made up:

• John Adams was hung like an infant. Its true. Abigail used to call it “lil’ John”
• The ghost of John Adams nailed Eleanor Roosevelt. Three times! Twice in the Lincoln Bedroom and once in the Rose Garden while FDR sat next to them napping. 
• The decision of who would become the first president between Washington and Adams was determined by an arm wrestling match.
• If you didn’t rearrange the letters in John Adams last name it would still be Adams.
• After leaving the presidency, Adams developed an addiction to internet poker. Abigail cured him of the addiction when she told him the internet was still 180 years from being invented by Al Gore.
• Every Thursday Adams’ asshole stunk like rotten tomatoes. In fact the British were all set to attack Boston but were overcome by the fierce stench of his stink ass. So they waited to Friday but it was too late because the revolution was over.True story.
• His motto in life was: “If God didn’t want you to masterbate, he wouldn’t have invented Palm Sunday.” A lot of people actually credit this saying to Jesus Christ, but he actually said something slightly different in that he didn’t mention God, masterbating or Palm Sunday.
• Reading this post is a waste of your precious time.Most of the British soldiers suffered from a nasty case of ass herpes. Adams found this out and stole all of New England’s ass pillows and sold them on Ebay. At first the British were pissed, but they found it funny after they realized he “shopped victoriously”.

Another thing I found interesting was all those damn wigs they wore. I mean, honestly, what the fuck? I know they still do that in England and I just don’t understand why. And to make things even funnier, they also have more than one. You can wear the younger looking one or if you are really doing something of utter importance you can look completely ridiculous and wear the one with white hair. Yeah, I’m gonna need some explanations on those damn things.

Here is Liam’s brilliant response to what I should say next time (assuming there is a next time) the topic comes up with Dori.

“Eugh.  First of all, I lost all respect for people who are too lazy to
type “you” and type “u” instead.  “According to the Bible u are going
to Hell.”

And according to the dictionary you have a lot of work ahead of you.

Anyway,
in terms of dealing with something like this, there are several ways to
go about it.  The problem is as of late I have really gotten into the
Satanist philosophy so I hold religion in such little respect that it’s
hard to take anything they say seriously.

First of all, you can challenge back with other things the Bible says are “bad.”

Most people like to quote these in terms of being against gays:

“You shall not lie
with a male as with a woman. It is an abomination.”
(Leviticus 18:22)

“If a man lies with
a male as he lies with a woman, both of them have committed an
abomination. They shall surely be put to death. Their
blood shall be upon them.” (Leviticus 20:13)

Now check these out:

“For
everyone who curses his father or his mother shall surely be
put to death. He has cursed his father or his mother. His blood
shall be upon him.” (Leviticus 20:9)

“If a
man lies with a woman during her sickness and uncovers her nakedness,
he has discovered her flow, and she has uncovered the flow of
her blood. Both of them shall be cut off from her people.”
(Leviticus
20:18)

“Do not
cut the hair at the sides of your head or clip off the edges
of your beard.” (Leviticus 19:27)

“…do
not plant your field with two kinds of seed. Do not wear material
woven of two kinds of material.” (Leviticus 19:19)

“But all in the seas or
in the rivers that do not have fins and scales, all that move
in the water or any living thing which is in the water, they
are an abomination to you.” (Leviticus 11:10)

So
basically Christians are selectively choosing gay as being bad and
these other things are not important enough to be mentioned.  Unless
your friend is going to give up eating shrimp and getting haircuts,
tell her to lay off.

Then, there’s the politics.  Is your friend
also against abortion?  If she is, ask her this, would she rather have
the babies be aborted or would she rather have them be adopted by a gay
couple?  One of the problem with conservatives is that they want
everything, not realizing they can’t have their cake and eat it too. 
Either let the girls get their abortions or let the kids have a good
home.  Otherwise the child will most likely not receive the proper home
it deserves.  See what I’m saying?

What are the options for the
girl other than aborting?  Raising it herself is the first, but if
she’s considering the abortion, there are several reasons why: the
child is not wanted, she does not have enough finances to care for the
child, she knows she cannot properly care for the child, she wants her
own life and therefore will not properly care for the child.  This is a
small list of what I am sure is actually much longer.  So, if she
chooses to give birth but then give it up for adoption, she actually
has to give it up for adoption.  Do you know how many kids are in homes
without parents in the U.S. alone, let alone the rest of the world? 
And are you aware of how many gay couples would love to adopt these
kids and give them a loving home?  A lot, Mike.  There are a lot.  Pose
the question and make her choose.  And if she happens to be fine with
abortion, ask her why she hasn’t adopted.  I love hearing the argument
“There are plenty of straight couples looking to adopt!”  Bullshit.

Then there are some fantastic statistics about gays being able to raise
children better than straight couples.  I would really have to look for
these for you because I haven’t needed to show them to anyone in a
while, but there was a study of test scores between kids raised by gays
parents and kids raised by heterosexuals and almost always the gay
couples’ kids got better test scores.  It’s pretty sweet.  But, as your
friend only seems to be arguing about religion, this really has nothing
to do with the argument.  I just think it’s interesting.

If
gay marriage comes up, and if you agree with my views on gay marriage,
throw that at her.  Tell her that a) you don’t want a marriage because
you don’t need to be recognized by the Church and b) all heterosexual
marriages should have nothing to do with the government.  If straights
want what are now considered “marriage rights” such as visiting your
partner when they’re in the hospital, etc., they should get a civil
union through the State and get all of the benefits through that.  If I
remember the 8th grade correctly we have a separation of church and
state in this country, no?

If this isn’t enough, let me know.  I’m full of this shit.

Liam”

Like I told him, we gays are under constant attack from the crazy hardcore Christians. We need to have a response to anything they can throw at us. I’ve always found it more than a little curious that they are so preoccupied with gays and focus such little attention on pre-marital sex, gambling and other things. Not that there is wrong with any of that, in fact I’m all for it, but for whatever reason they go after gays. And I realize I’m preaching to the choir on all of this, as for the most part you all agree with me. But common sense and science prove that being gay is not a choice. You can not control who you are attracted to. That’s the common sense part. And when you look at how much more fem gay guys are than straight guys, well that’s just science.

As for me, I first realized I was gay when I was 11. Shit even before that when I was in 5th grade, I remember going to my neighbor Mistey’s birthday party and being strangely enthralled by this boy a couple of years older than me. I think he might have been my first boy crush. Not only did I think he was the coolest thing ever, but I left the party wanting to see more of him, even though I pretty much didn’t really see him again. Then as I got into middle school and hit puberty,  I noticed that the other boys in school were, well, for lack of a better term, turning me on. I didn’t know why. All I know is that I couldn’t control it and the highlight of my day was starting to be shower time in gym class. I wanted to like girls, in fact, I spent the better part of 10 years hoping and praying that I would not be gay anymore and that I would be attracted to girls. Its not that I had any problem with gays. I had full support for them in every manner, I strongly felt that gays should have every right straights had. I never discriminated against gays to hide my own sexuality. I never pretended to be straight, I never faked attraction in girls or dated girls to just to keep my cover. I still believe firmly that if somebody assumes I’m straight, well, that is their own fault. But, I went everyday not wanting to be what I was, but knowing that there was no way for me to change. It took a long time for me to overcome those feelings and accept what and who I am.

So when those fuckers say its a choice, they are ignorantly clueless to sexuality. I’ve always believed that those people who claim to be “cured” of homosexuality are just fooling everybody. Deep down they know they are still gay and they still have feelings for people of the same sex. Its just that religion makes them feel so guilty and evil, that they suppress those feelings. And if they don’t, they are excluded and chastised for something out of their control. See, this is one of the main reasons why I LOATHE religion with every fiber of my being. Sure, they pretend to preach love and accept everybody, but so often they fail to live up to their promise. Instead they divide, hate and create bigotry to those who are different, whether it be gays, blacks, or people of other faiths. So that is where my distrust and hatred of it starts.