As you might remember from my December 14th, January 4th and January 19th posts, I’m reading a book about American History. When we last left off, I was around 317 pages into this nearly 700 page book. Well as of this past Monday, I was 400 pages into it, which means that I’ve slowed down the pace a little compared with last time, I’m now back to about 8 pages a day. I’m thinkin I would have a lot more time to read if I just stopped dealing drugs to middle school kids. Anywho, at this pace, I will probably be done some time in July which is right about the time the pregame show for the 2011 Super Bowl will start! When I last left off, I was right around World War 1. Well here is what I have learned in the last 80 plus pages:

• WWI was started in part because some Austrian dude double parked in front of the Eiffel Tower.
• The 1920s were such a great time in America due in part to the invention of the glory hole.
• Before becoming the leader of Germany, Adolf Hitler played 12 seasons with the Sacramento Kings.
• Eleanor Roosevelt once had an erection lasting longer then 4 hours.
• During his second term in office, Franklin Roosevelt hosted an MTV show called “Pimp My Wheelchair”.
• To help end inbreeding, the atomic bomb was originally supposed to be dropped in Alabama.

Wow man, this is almost too much information to learn all at once. Anywho, until next time………

Recently I’ve come to a realization. As I have mentioned before, I’m not out to everybody I know. Its easy for me to stay in the closet because I’m a masculine guy or as some people like to say, “straight acting” which is a phrase I’ve never liked. I realize that because of my masculinity, I can help break the typical gay stereotypes. I realize that the gay movement needs people like me. I have come out to people previously, and for the  most part it has gone well. But there is still a good percentage of people in my life who do not know I’m gay. I’d like to say that there is a legit, good excuse as to why I’m not out to more people, but the reality is that I’m just a pussy and too scared and uncomfortable to come out. Well, I’m determined to take the next step and come out to more people.

And it starts this Friday. For reasons that shall remain unsaid, I’ve got to come out to another very good friend of mine; in fact, she is probably one of my best friends. I’ve known her for 9 years and although she has always suspected as much and even made comments about it, I’ve never actually confirmed it for her. Hell, I’ve even slept with one of her other gay friends (he promised not to tell her……….don’t know if I should spring that one on her too, it might be too much for her all at once). Still, I’ve been here before in which I’ve nervously dreaded coming out to somebody, and yet, here I am again, dreading the end of the week. I do realize that I am the only one who can scrum up the courage for myself to do this. I’m quite certain she will be accepting but I’m also quite certain that she will be upset that I’ve known her all these years and never told her. When I came out to my friend Dave (which I documented here on Xanga some 5 plus years ago) he was very upset with me that I had not told him; he was hurt and felt left out. As I explained to him, I do not apologize for not telling him sooner (I had known him for about 11 years when I finally told him) because up until then, he had not been very accepting of gays, so why would I tell him. As for my friend who I’m going to tell on Friday, well I’ve got no excuse for not telling her and now I’ve got to live and deal with her reaction of being kept in the dark all these years. I hope to be strong though and not pussy out of the whole thing. And should I actually go through with it, I will take full responsibility for how she feels.

I saw Quentin Tarantino’s latest flick,  Inglourious Basterds over the weekend. I’ve long been a Tarantino fan and have seen many of his movies. Hell, I loved Reservoir Dogs so much that I even bought a Reservoir Dogs calendar this year. As for Basterds, it was not as good as Pulp Fiction or Dogs, but still pretty good. What I didn’t like about it though was that it was a total fabrication of WWII, I mean none of the stuff that happened in the movie actually happened in real life, yet it had so many historical people from WWII in the movie, like Hiter and some of his henchman. Also, for some reason the movie leads you to believe that Hitler hated Jews. I mean, I just don’t know where they got that from.

Now I’m sure not all of you are Tarantino fans. Actually, come to think of it, I think a lot of you probably do like some of his movies, I mean its not like he is some little known indie director. But if you have been indifferent to him or not seen many of his movies, I would say Pulp Fiction and Reservoir Dogs are pretty much not just Tarantino classics, but also American movie classics. I will stress though that they are not for everybody; I mean some people just aren’t into those types of movies and that is ok. But if you like gangster movies, than I’m going to suggest dropping everything and seeing them. Just give yourself a little bit of extra time for Pulp Fiction, it is like 3 hours long. Oh, and it might make more sense if you are REALLY stoned when watching it.

That’s all for now. Yay for short posts!