October 27, 2004
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Geez. What a day. Let me start off by saying I have been having
somewhat of a………..health issue recently. I will spare you the
details, but you should be able to get a general idea. I was
slightly concerned about it, but after today, I became really nervous
about it.First of all, training is not good. We have been there 3 days, and I
swear, we have not learned a damn thing. Its fun, because we get a
chance to socialize a lot, but thats pretty much it. People, including
the trainer, go on and on about various non work related things. When
we do talk about work, its usually about various health insurance
coverages and for specific diseases. Now, early on today, the topic was
cancer, and everybody shared things about it. Because of my present
situation, the conversation was a little unsettling, but nothing
compared to later in the afternoon. Lets just say, I’m having
“plumming” issues. Well, this one lady starts talking about a problem
she had when she was 20, and it was very serious. So serious in fact,
that she wound up having her entire large intestine removed. And, for 5
months, she had to have a colostomy bag (spelling please). And she told
us some more graphic details, all of which scared the shit out of me. I
had decided early that I was going to make an appointment for the
doctor as soon as I got home, based on Scooty’s suggestion. So, I got
home and explained the situation. The receptionist lady said that the
doc wouldn’t be available until next friday and asked me if I would see
the nurse practiconer. I said I would prefer the doc. They put me on
hold. The nurse came back on and asked me a variety of questions
regarding my situation. After I answered them, she said that they had
an appointment tomorrow. Now, this is scary. Why else would an
appointment just all of a sudden be available if my situation wasn’t at
least somewhat serious? I looking at this realistically though. I know
there is a good chance it might be nothing. But, looking at my
symptoms, I know it might be serious. Either way, I need to know for my
own sanity. Right now, I’m sad and scared. And to make matters even
worse, I can’t sleep because of the new shift and everything. That is
not helping. After making the appointment, I called Scooty to help me
feel a little less…………nervous. He did sorta talk me off that
ledge, but I’m still very much uneasy about it, especially when he told
me what they had to do.All right, this is just getting scary. I just got off the phone with
Danel. I did not tell her anything about my problem. But, she was
telling me about her uncle and how his large intestine is leaking and
he needed surgery and he had all sorts of problems and its very
serious. Man, I can’t take this.
