June 8, 2006

• I came into work today knowing that I would more than likely find out
  if I got the job I applied for. Finally, at about 9:45ish, I get a call
  from the manager of that department to come up to her office. This was
  it, I had the job. As I walked over there, I got nervous, but in an
  excited sort of way. This job was tailored made for me, I was perfect
  for it, it has my name all over it, I have wanted this job since I
  started at this company. Her office door was closed so I knocked and
  came in. She had a smile on her face and told me to have a seat. She
  said she wanted to thank me for applying  and............

  "I am not able to offer you this position right now." I was stunned.
  Shocked. Devastated. I asked her what it was and she told me that the
  interview was great, I'm very intelligent but to try to be more
  focused. She told me she would have loved to have worked with me. She
  said that there were so many qualified people that this was the
  toughest decision she ever had to make at any job she had ever been at.
  I asked her later if it was more that somebody else was more qualified
  than me doing something and she said yes. Perhaps I was overconfident,
  but I was so sure I had this job. I refuse to accept that I was not as
  qualified as somebody else, after all, I have 3 1/2 years experience in
  this very job at AAA and my stats at this job are awesome. I'm a model
  employee. I don't know who actually got the  job, but I have a
  good idea and if it is correct, I was fucking robbed. That person,
  although qualified, is rude and not customer service oriented in any
  way. I was so disappointed, I spent the rest of the day in a foggy state
  of disbelief. If I can't get this position, than what does my future
  hold at this company. This is a job I have eyed ever since I started, I
  knew I could get it. I don't know what else to say.

  I told her that I would work hard and if another spot opens up, I will
  be right there. And I mean that. I want to do everything I can to prove
  that they made the wrong choice and I was the right person for the job.
  On the other hand, I'm questioning if maybe this is not the right
  company for me. I will take a few months to think, as I don't want to
  have a knee jerk reaction and leave a good thing.

  • 8:57 pm
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