March 25, 2007

• Friday night, we hung out at Mark's house, this was the first time I had seen Addison since the Super Bowl! I was a little worried that she would not like me again, but as it turned out, that was not a problem, she walked right up to me and gave me a hug and kiss. She even sat with me on the couch and let Mark take a picture of us. Hopefully, if he ever remembers, he will email it to me and I can post it.

  Last night was a card game at Sean's house in Bolingbrook. Long story short, I sucked. Actually, I was awful I think between 3 games, I won one damn hand. This cute guy from work showed up and brought his even cuter friend. The whole night though, people thought his friend was STONED out of his mind. Turns out, he wasn't, although he said he got high when he first got up, but this was way later in the day. Anywho, there is this other guy from work (who I have written about before and has showed up at the local bar I go to) has been bugging me to play cards with me for several years now. Well, he found out that I invited the cute guy to play, even though the cute guy has only worked there for a few months. See, the thing is, the cute guy is an atheist, just like me. He is straight, but is very open minded and does not have a problem with gays. Other dude from work is a Christian and has issues with gays. Not to say he hates gays, but he has told me if his son (who is only like 8) turned out to be gay, he would never let him in his house again. Needless to say, I am not out at work, neither of these guys know I'm gay. The Christian dude wants to be better friends with me, yet for obvious reasons, I keep him at an arm's length. We have hung out, we have been in several fantasy leagues together and I have played cards at his house. But, I feel bad that I have hurt his feelings because I won't take him with me when I play cards. Yet, I just can not justify being friends with somebody who does not approve of my homosexuality. On the other hand, I feel like I'm being too judgemental. Also, if I come out to him, I just might be able to influence him and shatter every stereotype he has. I might make him more accepting of gays. I almost feel like I've got an obligation to come out to him and be a positive influence for gays, so that he is more accepting. I'm arrogant enough to think that I can be the exception to the rule and the person that makes him less of a bigot, although I think that might be too strong of a word. On the other hand, I'm pretty strong in my convictions that I not be friends with somebody who is a bigot. Then again, Dave is a bigot and he is one of my best friends. If I were more strong in my convictions 10 years ago, he and I would have not been friends. But, I also like to think that I have changed him and opened his mind. I guess what I want to know is, am I being ridiculous for not wanting to be friends with this guy? Its not like he is a bad guy, we seem to have a lot in common. He is one of my closer friends at work and if he were not a homophobe, we would be pretty good friends. I have not talked to him since he found out that I invited the other guy from work, I suspect he might ask me about it this week, so that would be a perfect time to deal with this.

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