January 20, 2008
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There is this guy I used to work with who is “straight” and has a girlfriend. Actually, I think I heard he is engaged now. Nevertheless, he and I were kind of friends at work, but there was always a sexual tension with us. He did not know about me being gay, but he had confessed to me that he has homosexual desires. We were always making comments to each other and doing things that were inappropriate at work, such as pretending to deep throat a breadstick. We talked often about the two of us going out and getting drunk together. I never did it because I didn’t want to drink and drive. Shit, we even talked about taking a road trip to Ho Chunk casino in Wisconsin gambling and getting drunk up there so that we wouldn’t have to drive. I believe that he probably has had some sort of homosexual sex in the past and drinking was the way he could justify doing it again. I haven’t seen him since our company closed, which was about 3/12 years ago. For some reason though, every few months, I have these hot, sexual dreams about him. The other night, I had one of these dreams. And its not like he is hot or that I’m even that attracted to him, but its just the thought of getting a straight guy that is such a turn on. Shit, to be honest, for some reason I’m probably more attracted to straight guys than gay guys. This got me to thinking.
Why are people always attracted to what they can not have? And this is something that crosses gender and sexual orientation. For example, a straight guy’s biggest fantasy is usually two lesbians. And what’s even funnier is that a lot of times its not even the straight guy having sex with them both, its the fantasy of the two chicks doing each other while the guy watches. Then you have got chicks, whose ultimate fantasy is converting a gay guy. Girls always seem to be more attracted to a guy once they find out he is gay. As I have mentioned, you also have the gay guy’s who want a straight guy. With all this wanting and fantasizing, its almost amazing that people even have sex.
Then there is the whole threesome fantasy. Allow me to explain. I will be chatting with gay guys online (or even in person) and the first thing they ask me when they find out I have a twin brother is, “Really? Is he gay too?” mainly because they instantly get this thought in their head of them having sex with twins. Of course, this is also a big straight guy fantasy too (just ask Hugh Hefner) of sleeping with twins. Did it ever occur to these people that most people would not want to sleep with their sibling? Not only would they not want it, but they would also be disgusted and repulsed at the very thought? I mean, after all would THEY want to sleep with their sibling? No, they wouldn’t so what makes them them think twins would want to?
Really that’s all I have for now.
Comments (4)
I DO agree when it comes to all the other things that you wrote of wanting what one cannot have, but…honestly…for me…..I have never been attracted to a guy “one I found out he was gay”. Honest! And I DO KNOW that you are right about this…I DO see it happen….but honest…for me…it never has happened. I sorta feel like I could ALWAYS tell…even if it was annanounced at first. I mean….offline, of course…and not with people I’d meet online… offline….and in real life….there’s a certain vibe….a good vibe….of depth….from gay men…towards girls….you are like better friends….have a depth that only girls have with each other–in friendships– so I could always tell.
For me….having seen this happen…..I always felt….the girls who felt they would “convert” the gay man (
) …there was stuff behind it….. low self esteem on the girls part…knowing they could never get him….but so enjoying the closeness, etc.
One of my best friends all through school was gay. I ALWAYS knew he was…..since we were 12 I could see it a mile away….he DID date girls all through middle school, and highschool…..but I ALWAYS knew he was lying to himself..he had the BEST clothes…got Best dressed in middle and high school…..was really popular….not real into sports though… and sure enough….we reconnected a few years ago, and lo and behold…..I was correct. He went on to be a designer for Tommy Hilfiger, and was living in Milan, and happy as can be…..and felt the need to make sure to tell me, “Jamie….just so you know……I hope this doesn’t change our friendship….but I am gay”
You guys always like to announce this….hehehe….I think it is because you have had enough…..you ALWAYS knew, but were confused by it I guess….as younger kids..and feel…something…..perhaps it is the feeling that now you are finally being happy and being true to yourself????… when WE GIRLS realized the whole time.
Happy Sunday, you!
I meant “unannounced at first” ^^^^^ up there.
P.S.
I have never had a 3some with another girl and a guy….ONLY with 2 guys. It was lovely….and I’d NEVER do the 2 girl way. I DO think that one of the boys involved …is questionable….it was HIS suggestion…..and straight boys really don’t like the 2 boy one girl plan, right? 
He is the same one that I mentioned in my “ass” post the other day……again…ALL straight men seem to deny wanting anything in their ass……SEE???????
wait, wait, wait ^^^^^^^^ not sure how that sounds ^^^^^ but to clarify…..they did NOT touch each other..do ANYTHING to each other..only to me. I don’t think I would have been into it if they had. Me, me, me….it’s all about me…..